Caffeine + Gratitude
I mistakenly drank a cup of coffee late this evening, which has resulted in subsequent insomnia. Our youngest is curled up in bed next to me, sound asleep and snoring after a long day of swimming, and my mind is quite wide awake and buzzing with all kinds of things.
I just finished watching Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil for the first time. Have you ever seen it? John Cusack? Kevin Spacey?
It's odd, people. Super odd. Like, intriguingly odd. I thought.
Anyway. I digress. So now here I am, in the hour past midnight, my fingers slightly trembly from my late-night caffeine consumption, and of course my thoughts are pinging through my head like a ball in a pinball machine, bouncing from one thought to the other. What is our schedule for tomorrow (today)? Did I leave laundry in the washing machine? Remember that one time in third grade when my teacher would purposely turn down the A/C while she read Laura Ingalls Wilder's 'The Long Winter' out loud to us after lunch, so we would feel the frostiness of the book? Did I remember to remove my mascara? I MISS MY CHILDHOOD CAT.
Yah. THE THOUGHTS THEY ARE A-PINGING.
And those pinging thoughts suddenly bring a tiny sense of dread, that feeling of anxiety and being overwhelmed. When my mind gets like this (because, let's face it, this sometimes happens even without caffeine), I take a deep breath and begin to run down the list of good things from my day. Or, simply, things I am thankful for. And then peace begins to creep in. Peace, followed by rest.
Because it's hard to feel overwhelmed in the midst of gratitude.
Thankful for coffee with a friend.
Thankful for really delicious summer peaches.
Thankful for healthy kids.
Thankful for an afternoon spent with sweet friends.
For the warm sunshine.
For blonde heads and blue eyes and cheeks pink from the sun.
For that look from my husband when he walks in the door.
For a quiet walk down our driveway as the sun sets.
For a movie with friends.
And the cup of coffee that kept me awake (through most of it).
Was that late night cup of coffee a good idea? Maybe not. But three cheers for the good things that led up to it.
"Gratitude can transform common days into thanksgivings, turn routine jobs into joy, and change ordinary opportunities into blessings." // William Arthur Ward
Have a lovely day, friends.